Three days pass and no goals

Well, I said I would have a list of goals 3 days ago, but I have not had a moment to sit down and collect my thoughts. There's been a lot of last minute Christmas shopping, dinners, brunches, errand running and house remolding. As u can see its been busy, but I have my Thursday planned. So, there is time set aside to do some planning and things of that nature.

On a side note, I just recieved my power90 (beginners P90x) discs that I ordered. I am kinda excited to get started, but I want to start the program with the wife. So, that means planning when, how, and some meal planning as well. I guess it is better to have a plan, then jumping in with both feet and hoping to stick the landing.

Trying to get back on the horse, and re- start/re-energize this whole weight loss journey. 1 year down with little to now results. It's time to start anew!

If you have ever lost focus, what did u do to re-gain control? I need every tip/ trick I can get.

The Winter Slump

The winter slump is trying to set in. I've pretty much lost all focus on my goals. I've worked out on and off for the last few months and at this present moment I feel like I have giving up. I still have clue why I find it so hard to commit to exercise and eating healthy. I have no explanation for it, except that I must be that freakin lazy or I have no problem with where I am at. That last part has to be wrong, because I have a problem with a lot of things. Such as the way I fit in my clothes, the way I fit in booths at restaurants, and the way my body just aches all the time. Nobody likes feeling this way, but it is hard to admit that I am lazy, that I am afraid of doing things outside my comfort zones, just plan afraid of looking foolish. The funny thing about it is that I know no one is looking at me as I workout, swim, or bike, but every time I just feel like there are a thousand eyes mocking me and just thinking ugly thoughts. It sucks that I have not found the strength to just say "F&$@ it!" and do what I need to do at the gym or pool.

"It's all in your head! It's all in your head!" is what i have to tell myself every time I step out to go exercise or go to a restaurant and it is exhausting trying to fight your self. It is so freakin exhausting. I need to find away to just step out of my own way. Ive read about positive self-talk and i I am going to try more positive self-talk.(explanation will be in later posts.) Hell, I got to try something. I do not want to look back on another year and see that for all my accomplishments I really have nothing to show for it.

I gotta to start small and set realistic obtainable goals. I will stop looking at the end of next year or a month from now and just look at today. "How can I be a better person today? What healthy choices can I make today? ". There will come a time when I will be able to set goals for the future, but for right now I am going to work on daily goals until I can gain control over my lack of commitment an focus.

So, tomorrow/today is Monday. I am going to work on a list of goals I would like to accomplish on a daily basis and I will post them tomorrow. So, I can refer back to them when needed.