Tracking and other things - Thursday, February 17, 2011

Well, this week Mike posed a challenge to me. The challenge was to track my caloric intake for the week and post it to facebook. I really did not want to, because I know I eat like crap. I did not want everyone else to know that I eat like crap. I guess you always, try to say that you don't eat that bad, but once you see the numbers staring at you in the face, it is hard to tell yourself that you do not eat bad.

You know what this is bullshit, I feel like I have not done anything I have said I am going to do. I wonder why I can''t just do it. I know it's hard, but damn I am stronger then this. I know I am stronger then this. I have to make my mind up and start doing what I know is right. I tell myself that this week has shown me a lot, but if you looked at my caloric intake you would see that Monday I ate like 4000 calories, Tuesday and Wednesday I eat in a decent calorie range and then today I eat another 4000 calories. WTF, WTF, that is all I can say. There is no way I should eat this crap, that I shove in my body. I finally figured out why I blog so sporadically. I take days off blogging , because I take days off my plans/my life. Yep, I am taking days off my life every time I eat the double quarter pounder or a plate of pasta. I know this is going to kill me if things do not change, and things have to change. I do not want to die early, I do not want to have the knee pain and joint pain anymore. MY LIFE has to change now. I have to make the moves to be here for my family. I need to be healthy, I want to be healthy. I have to stop sitting on the couch and keep up and move. If it's just 30 minutes, I just have to do it. So, I am hoping this will be my last blog where I have to rant and rave about my weight issue. I am GOING to start moving and eating right. I will start blogging everyday, just to keep myself on track. So, Everyone out there please wish me luck, because I am going to need it. Changes is coming and its going to be hard, but I will learn how strong I can be.

THIS WEIGHT CAN NOT HOLD ME BACK ANYMORE. I CAN NOT LET IT HOLD ME BACK!!!

This is a quote I remember from the walls of my HS football weight room. I pushed myself harder everyday when I read it. It is time to get back to a mind frame of pushing myself to the max and leave it all on the field. Let's get to work!!!!

Every morning in Africa, a Gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be eaten. Every morning a Lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest Gazelle or it will starve to death. It doesn't matter whether you are a Lion or a Gazelle... when the sun comes up, you'd better be running

Second 5K Down Saturday February 12th 2011

Oh where to start! I participated in my second 5K and I am still married to my wife (we'll get to that later). The day started out pretty early. I woke up at 6:30 and started getting ready for the day. I was extremely nervous for some reason. I totally don't know why, but I was. We got everything together and then we went to pick up some friends who on Thursday got roped into joining us. Then we meet my brother and headed downtown. We did whole pre-race thing, registering, stretching and talking about the uber-competitive people. Next, thing I know we are at the start getting ready to go. While, at the starting line, we talked a guy who start running 5K's 3 years ago and he had lost 110lbs. I proceeded to give him a high five and said way to go. And we were off to the races. Randy, Jenna, and my Brother started off running and my wife and I started off jogging, until I heard her wheezing and I decided we should walk awhile. Why was she wheezing you ask? Well, she has been fighting a cold for two weeks and it's in her chest, but she really wanted that shirt. So we walked some and run some and we did our first mile in under 17 minutes. Ooooooh then the dreaded mile 2. With her cold comes stuffy ears and she did not realize how loud we were fighting. We were fighting because I felt she was pushing me to hard, but she felt I was letting my inner TW speak for me. So, this went on until we stopped talking to each other for the next half mile. Mile two was mostly walking due to the fact I was been a stubborn Jack A&%. So, we round corner to start our last mile and I decided that my wife was probably right. During mile it was down hill until we got to second Avenue. I ran all the way to second and then we walk/ran every block to try and get under an hour. I had my "carrots" picked out and I passed the first one at about 2 1/2 miles in, and then I caught the second one at the 3 mile marker. My wife and I ran last block to the finish. I crossed the finish line at around 57 minutes (unofficial). I felt good after the race and I am proud of what I did and with the next race I will get better. I would like to thank my brother and friends for coming out, running, and supporting my efforts.

Pre-race inside Bridgestone Arena

Starting Line

 

Diffcult Week 01/30 - 02/05

Weight loss
Nov 12 = 345
Nov 26 = 342.8 (-2.2)
November Total = 2.2

Dec 10 = 340.2 (-2.6)

Jan 03 = 344.2 (+4.0)
Jan 10 = 337.8 (-6.4)
Jan 17 = 340.4  (+2.6)
Jan 24 = 340.4  (0.0)
January Total = -0.02

Feb 07 = 342.2 (+1.8)
Total loss so far  = 2.8

How many times have you had a week where you did not feel like doing anything? Not even getting up out of bed! Well, that was my week last week. I felt like crap all freaking week. I did not want to do anything, hence the none posting of the blog or the working out. I have no clue what hit me, but I was stuck in a rut. Throughout the week I tried to figure out what was going on. Was I depressed; had I bitten off more then I could chew with this blog/exercise plan or could it be that I put my self out there and I feel like I am failing myself and know everybody knows I am failing. To this day I have no clue what the issue was, I just could not find the motivation to workout, blog, and track my food. Last week, we went to Mike's house and I was able to workout and talk out all this stuff that had been on my mind. It's was good to get it out in the open and kind of get sometime of feedback. I was not looking for anyone to tell what was wrong or how to fix it, but just to listen and let me get it off my chest and out of my head. I am glad I was able to talk with Mike, because he did not try to give me reasons or some magical cure, he just listened and then said ok it's time to get back to work and we did a session of P90x Plyo. Even though the workout pushed me a little to hard and I got light headed/dizzy, it was good to just sweat it out and get a workout done.

On Saturday, I dropped the wife off at work and then took the car to Firestone around the corner, instead of waiting at the shop, I ran back to my wife's work. which was only a little under half a mile. I told mike on Friday that I would do 4 miles on Saturday, but that .5 miles was cold, I mean coooooooold! After I got the car back, I was totally going to go home, but I decided to keep my word and finish what I had started. I went to the park by my wife's work and did 3.63 additional miles. I walked a lot of it, but I am slowly trying to get of the mental aspect of running and push past my bodies "limitations". It's hard to push yourself when you body is fighting against you. I could have quite and went home, but I finished the walk/run. 

For those who read this blog I need help. I have a challenge for each of you. It's not difficult, but will require to to answer/comment on a question or two!

1. How do you pull yourself out of a rut/"depressed" period of time?
2. Also, when  running/walking the front; right side of my shin tightens up. Is there any stretches or exercises I could do to strengthening or stretch this spot/muscle? 

If you can answer the above questions, feel free to leave a comment!!!