Tracking and other things - Thursday, February 17, 2011

Well, this week Mike posed a challenge to me. The challenge was to track my caloric intake for the week and post it to facebook. I really did not want to, because I know I eat like crap. I did not want everyone else to know that I eat like crap. I guess you always, try to say that you don't eat that bad, but once you see the numbers staring at you in the face, it is hard to tell yourself that you do not eat bad.

You know what this is bullshit, I feel like I have not done anything I have said I am going to do. I wonder why I can''t just do it. I know it's hard, but damn I am stronger then this. I know I am stronger then this. I have to make my mind up and start doing what I know is right. I tell myself that this week has shown me a lot, but if you looked at my caloric intake you would see that Monday I ate like 4000 calories, Tuesday and Wednesday I eat in a decent calorie range and then today I eat another 4000 calories. WTF, WTF, that is all I can say. There is no way I should eat this crap, that I shove in my body. I finally figured out why I blog so sporadically. I take days off blogging , because I take days off my plans/my life. Yep, I am taking days off my life every time I eat the double quarter pounder or a plate of pasta. I know this is going to kill me if things do not change, and things have to change. I do not want to die early, I do not want to have the knee pain and joint pain anymore. MY LIFE has to change now. I have to make the moves to be here for my family. I need to be healthy, I want to be healthy. I have to stop sitting on the couch and keep up and move. If it's just 30 minutes, I just have to do it. So, I am hoping this will be my last blog where I have to rant and rave about my weight issue. I am GOING to start moving and eating right. I will start blogging everyday, just to keep myself on track. So, Everyone out there please wish me luck, because I am going to need it. Changes is coming and its going to be hard, but I will learn how strong I can be.

THIS WEIGHT CAN NOT HOLD ME BACK ANYMORE. I CAN NOT LET IT HOLD ME BACK!!!

This is a quote I remember from the walls of my HS football weight room. I pushed myself harder everyday when I read it. It is time to get back to a mind frame of pushing myself to the max and leave it all on the field. Let's get to work!!!!

Every morning in Africa, a Gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be eaten. Every morning a Lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest Gazelle or it will starve to death. It doesn't matter whether you are a Lion or a Gazelle... when the sun comes up, you'd better be running