Reality punches you in the face!!

So, today has been the first day in a long while that I have kept track of my food. What prompted today’s tracking you ask. My wife and I were watching a show about a 17 year old kid that was 400+ pounds. This kid was getting bariatric surgery and the show was just documenting his journey. As, I sit back and ridiculed this kid for not trying, thinking that I was somehow better than this kid, since I was not 400+ pounds. After, some contemplation I realized that I am this kid. After my physical this year when the scale read 360lbs, I was totally thinking about bariatric surgery. It seems simple enough, but after seeing some of his day, I am totally like that stuff is not for me. I know I have issues losing weight, but I don’t want to take the easy way out. I don’t believe me having surgery would get to the root of the issue. The eating habits, the reason I eat the way I do. On the documentary every time this kid didn’t eat right or did not take his vitamins he would be sick and lethargic. Is it wrong of me to not want to get cut on just to lose weight, when I believe I can do it naturally without surgery? I have to make changes to what/how I do things in my life. I need to move and eat right. Well, ok I am just rambling now. Let’s get back on the topic of food tracking. Ok, so the part of this show that stuck out was the fact that this kid has to eat close to 4000+ calories a day to stay at 400 lbs. 4,000 calories a day!!!. Crap, that’s a lot of calories. Most dietary needs are 2000- 2500 calories a day depending on activity level and what not. So, in my head I figured for every 100 lbs, you need roughly 1000 calories to sustain that weight. Surely, I do not eat that many freaking calories (roughly 3000). It’s funny that this just hit me today, that I do eat that many freaking calories. Crippity crap! So, today I decided I will track my food. Well, I picked a fine day. Woke up late had Chick-Fil-A for breakfast, and then went to Maggiano’s for lunch. Well needless to say I am at 3203 calories and it’s not even 3:00 pm yet. I guess eating dinner is out of the question. Well, I am going to have to eat dinner, but it’s going to have to be a healthy dinner. Since we have birthing class this evening, I have no clue where or what we are going to eat. Crap Crap, I thought I eat better then I was, but I am guessing I was totally in denial. For some reason I just thought I was eating a “healthy” amount of calories. My body just held onto everything. No, I was eating everything I see.
As of 3:12 pm my food intake is below

Breakfast: 1088
Chick-fil-a (Standard running late Breakfast, but I run late almost every day):
Hash Browns
Spicy Chicken Biscuit with Egg and Pepper Jack Cheese
Medium Cherry Coke

Lunch: 2115 Calories
Maggiano’s:
Chopped Salad
Chicken Parmesan Sandwich with Papas Frites
Coca Cola Classic

I need to shape up or this food/fat thing is going to kill me. It’s crazy how I can watch that show and not see myself in the kid. I’ve actively struggled with my weight issue for two years now with good results. I’ve gained weight the last two years. This brings that famous Albert Einstein quote to mind; “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results.” So, I’ve been actively insane for two years. A change is much need and the question now is: What are you going to do about it?

Working out but not eating right

For the past few weeks have been working out twice a week with my buddy over at Golden Bell Fitness. The work outs are great, the intensity is high, and everything, but I have not seen an results. I know it's pretty much my fault, because my eating habits are pretty crappy. One day, I count calories; I track everything I put in my mouth. Then the next day I go get McDonald's or some other fast food. It's like I can't help but shoot myself in the foot and I've done this for about three weeks now. This is one of the reasons I have been hesitant about restarting this blog back up. I felt I was not doing the right things so why should i write about them . I've come to the conclusion this morning, that this blog should be for me to keep track of my happens. Not just my weight loss journey. I have a lot going on in my life, I changed jobs a few months ago and that has not been an easy transition. My wife and I are expecting our first child in a little over 100 days. Nothing really seems to be going my way with either of those situations. And you know what sometimes you just have to write out what's going on in your head.

Yeah I know I went off on a mini tangent, but this is what I do sometimes. Well, I guess back to the subject. With all that said a done, I feel that I am a stress eater. Anytime I feel stressed I have something I know I should not be eating. My day sucks at work, oh I will hit McD's before I hit the interstate on the way home. I have no clue how to relate to my pregnant wife, oh let me grab that candy bar from the vending machine. Don't get me wrong, working out is a destresser, but I am all about quick fixes and waiting to I get off work or make the 1hr drive, sometimes just takes to damn long. There is something in my brain that tells me quick fix, quick fix, but I need to some how reprogram it, or out think it. It sucks because I know what i need to do, but I can't I have not been able to break my hold habits. (G.I. Joe reference) Knowing is half the battle, but what they don't tell you is hard work is the other part of the equation. I need to start working on the Hard Work portion. Gotta run to work, more to come later.

If you have any comments or suggestions let me know!

Tuesday's Food List - 20120529

Tuesday's Food List - 20120529

Breakfast:

Chick-Fil-A Spicy Chicken Biscuit with 1Egg Fold and Pepper Jack Cheese Added

                Chick-Fil-A Hash Browns

                Medium Coca-Cola Cherry

Snack:

Dannon Oikos Greek Yogurt Plain

Lunch:

                Burger Up:

3 Fried Pickle Chips                         

Black and Blue Burger w/ Mayo, Mustard, Lettuce, Tomato, Onion

                                Sweet Potato Fries and a few House fries

                                Dill Pickle Spare

                                Home Made Ketchup/Dijon Aioli Sauce

                                Water

Snack:

 4½ graham crackers

                Capri Sun Fruit punch

                Apple

Dinner:

                1 serving of Pesto orecchiette pasta with Shrimp, Carrots, and Peas