Wednesday June15th - - Yearly Physical and more randomness

Tuesday and Wednesday, I did nothing, I know I set out to do two workouts a day and I did not do them for two days. Usually this would send me into a downward spiral. I would usually say “F*** this, I guess since I messed up I will start back next Monday”, I would then slowly become a garbage compactor and stat shoveling bad stuff into my body. Not this time, I am actually looking for to tomorrow and getting back on the horse. There is no need for me to wait until Monday or whatever arbitrary day I make up. I’ve come to a conclusion that there will be bad days. It’s what you do after those bad days that help develop who you are as a person. There will be days I don’t work out or eat the right foods, but it’s the next day, meal, or workout that needs to be better. So, I am going to stop looking at my small failures as a much larger failure. It’s a little strange for me to actually look forward to my C25K runs, but I am actually excited about my run tomorrow. Well, I guess it does not hurt when you get a little motivation from an outside force. I had my yearly physical today and I was dreading the weigh-in. Why? Well last year at my physical my doctor suggested I go see specialist about sleep apnea and to see if I needed a sleep study, due to my weight. Well, I went home that night and looked to see if my insurance covered the sleep study and how much was the out of pocket cost. To have a sleep study done it was going to cost me a few hundred bucks. I can not remember the exact cost, but it was more then I was willing to pay. So, I mad a deal with my PCP, that if I did not lose weight before my next physical, then I would go see the specialist. Well, the day of reckoning has come and I stood before the scale and passed the test. I have lost 20lbs since my last physical a year ago. I went from 256lbs to 336lbs. I was completely and utterly speechless. I totally was in shock and happy that there was no need for that sleep study, that I still did not want to spend money to have done. This is why I am looking forward to my run tomorrow. This is why I want to keep pushing. This is a small victory that has put some things in to perspective for little ol’ me. I want to have more victories (small or large). It felt great to put one in the win column. Heck, yeah!

On another note, Doc says I need to cut my caloric intake back to about 1800 calories from 2700 calories, so there might be some anger posts or just random rants about lack of food. So that means I will have to keep a better eye on the foods I eat, so I am going to give this food journal another shot. Wish me luck!